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Emphasis Locator
03:35
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There will be no evening out the shadows of doubt
The powerless now
Still, the angels over your house are weary but indiminished
By the misused wonder of a chipped tooth summer
By the golden age that got started on the wrong page
By the broken gauge that can only miscommunicate
Halos hanging over the crowns
Even though my voice sounds different now
There is sweetness still to be found
Perpetually unfinished
I still see them meeting where the sketchy street ends
In a different place, they would say it straight to your face
With a different name, you could alternate a different way
In another time I could tell you how you changed me
How you changed me
With a different voice, I could sing you something pretty.
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Dreamed You Were A Dog
01:49
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Twenty times a day the room begins collapsing
Your surroundings slip away
You feel it while it’s happening but it’s harder to explain
Everything’s unraveling in a sick, familiar way
Twenty times a day
You dreamed you were a dog
You dreamed you had some friends who sometimes asked you what was wrong
They’d hold you if you whimpered and they’d kiss your little paws
They would reassure you you were perfect as you are
You dreamed you were a dog
They always want your time
They’re never sure what’s happening
But everyone is so happy for you.
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The last of the embers
Smothered in dust from the day
I have to remember
That I wasn't always this way
Water comes in through the windows
Covers the things that we saved
Stop when you see me
Notice the change in my face
Can we believe
We can keep running around in one place
Water comes in through the windows
Covers the things that we saved
Water flows over the mansions
Water flows over the graves.
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Coat Of Many Colors
02:05
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Everyone you remember from that summer
With their open arms
Wore a coat of many colors
When they talked to you
They were really saying something
It was beautiful when they smiled
Last year's friends aren't pretending they're still listening
You trusted them before money changed the vision
Now you oscillate
Between paradise and prison
In this awful place
Even on your birthday
Everybody's screaming, screaming (Yeah!)
But we couldn't tell you
Why we liked you in the first place
It might just be another party
It might just be a waste of time
But everyone says it doesn't even matter
I know everyone says it doesn't even matter
I know everyone says it doesn't even matter
I know everyone.
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Terms
03:06
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Every minor hum becomes amplified & dumb
There’s no decisions to be made
Nothing to agree to
I’ll meet you where you are
In some exasperated car
I feel your heavy atmosphere but I don’t see you
And just before the end
All the messages unsend
Something is happening again
Something is happening again
I’ll meet you where you are
Passing counterfeit watermarks in someone else’s storyline
In somebody’s preview
There’s a shadow over everything we share
When I hear you say “So much depends upon the name.”
I always wonder if it’s real
I always wonder if it’s real
I’ll meet you where you are
In the least transparent part
We can keep moving in the dark
It doesn’t matter
There’s a silence in the space where I should be
There’s a concept we keep talking about but no one sees
And I reject these terms
On the grounds that they’re ridiculous
On the grounds that you know that they’re cruel
You offer nothing in return
Seven thousand cigarettes and twelve sullen years on the lawn
And you still talk to me like it’s our first day at the art school
It’s almost like I could be anyone
Just like I could be anyone
I could be anyone
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Kinda Bloom
03:15
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April and the flowers sprout
A rainstorm knocks the power out
The changes come in trace amounts
But carry over
You call me up from someone's house
Someone that you don't talk about
Someone that you think doesn't count if you don't sleep over
I know that you want to be the ghost in every room
Even when you're haunting me
You can't tell me the truth
Everybody wants to be the sadness in the mercury
The magnets in the misery
That pull you closer
You call me 'cause you know I'm down
To pick you up from someone's house
It doesn't even matter now
I know it's over
You would think eventually we'd see some kind of bloom
Even when you're ending me
You still can't follow through
I know that you want to be the ghost in every room
Even when you're haunting me
You can't tell me the truth.
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New Weird Thing
03:14
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Somewhere beyond our absorbed attention
Every wavelength is contained
And there the past simply isn't mentioned
All your friends have no names
Still from a distance
The heartbeat skips
Everything's different in a day
Some early spring
And this new weird thing
Asks "Can I stay?"
Cold sun shines over the procession
Shows the outline of slow change
No one is asking you the right questions
And it's so strange
Lonelier now where it's clear and loud
Then we were in those blurry early days
As we get closer the structures come undone
One by one we all fall away.
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Coastline
01:22
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You're submerged on the sidelines
Trying to make the best of a bad night
Not going to live to cry
Spinning in rings of spite
Creaky demonic floorboards are trying to lock you in to a lifetime
Of one more ridiculous round
Of the game that you all played all night long
Of one more ridiculous round
Of the game that you all played all night long
When I saw you last night
You told me you were leaving in the springtime
From the glass in your eyes
I could tell you had no reason to lie
When I saw you last night
You told me you were headed for the coastline
There were clouds in your eyes
I could tell that you were talking from the outside.
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Polaroid
02:13
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I used to have a Polaroid camera
I took it with me everywhere
I used to take pictures of people
So they'd remember I was there
With my forefinger on the flash
A little light got past
But the color of my blood
Cast a shade of red on everyone
I used to be a different person
I wanted something different then
I wanted everybody to like me
No matter what I thought of them
I wanted to connect on a feeling
But I felt different every day
I made a language that I didn't believe in
And wondered why I couldn't explain
With my eyes focused on the past
Portraits piled up in stacks
Faces that I barely knew
Trying to let a little more light through
Filtered friends through a soft lens
With an aperture locked and automatic
Kept them where the light bent
Frozen in poses
Encased in plastic
But they always knew when a camera was in the room
And they always found their way
Back into the center of the frame
I used to have a Polaroid camera
I took it with me everywhere
I used to take pictures of people
So they'd remember I was there.
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I went out and saw some friends
But the vibe was strained and off
Something stilted
Something different
Something missing
I couldn't wait to get back home
And out of that all-too-familiar zone
Where you're lonely in the presence of another
How they speak so highly of you
When you aren't in the room
And they hold you to a standard they don't share
An indelicate reminder of the distance between you
How they only want you when you aren't there
I remember how you looked
When I told you that I needed some help
We were standing in the corner at another busted function
Your face registered concern
But it was clear that you were somewhere else
You were struggling to conceal your exhaustion
But you spoke so highly of me
When I wasn't in the room
It's just a part of the landscape
Like the whispers behind your back
Like the digital artifacts of some weird, maladaptive love
And I can't believe that I'm still here
Hanging around in your old soundtracks
How every familiar soft attack
Still leaves me paralyzed and stunned
Like I never saw it happen before.
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Strange Ceilings
03:14
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The house where you used to live
On what used to be your street
Someone else lives there now
Someone you used to kiss
Someone you used to be
A memory
Has it been long enough to give them up?
The page is blank, sacrosanct
Those days were dumb
I followed you up the stairs
We noticed the kitchen creek
The clatter from the basement drums
An unmonumental night
With underattended dreams vanishing
Has it been long enough to give them up?
I know it's not obvious, but wait for us
Words with many meanings
Kept you sleeping beneath strange ceilings
Feelings predicated on when they'd expire
Memorial Day weekend felt dishonest and uneven
This was supposed to be a more important time
I know it's not obvious, but wait for us.
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Last Show
01:54
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Every day I wake up thinking
That there's something that I haven't tried
Maybe something simple would set everything right
And I've had enough people tell me that there's nothing on the other side
But more songs about water
More reasons to cry
I know that there are forces that no one can see
Every day I hear the echoes
Like the bees that buzz around the hive
I can still remember
But it gets less vivid each time
I understand why we would want to cling
To figments from another life
When it hurts to move forward
When it's painful to try
I know that it's impossible to really be seen
But I see all the changes while they're happening
And I see all the people that are changing me.
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